I try to usually be a pretty positive person, but like we are struggling financially. The mattress in our bedroom is killing both me and my fiance' backs so need a new mattress (plus I am still paying this mattress off, 4 years later.).
I dropped my laptop a few weeks back and ever since, have been having to use HDMI cable and a tv as a monitor because the screen don't wanna turn on and the last few days, the laptop is starting to show signs of dying worse off.
(My fiance says he will build me a desktop
pc, so hopefully my laptop can hold off till then or I can afford to get a keyboard accessory for my
Ipad Mini tablet.
(I will need one eventually when I go back to college classes.)
Then finally, I feel like I am straining my eyes more and more each day, even with my glasses. I cannot afford to go to LensCrafters (they
dont take
medicaid) at the moment. Sometimes I think I should just bite the bullet and just get the
fricken laser surgery, but I am also scared to do it.
I hate ranting and venting, It just gets overwhelming at times...
Also, Shane Dawson, a
youtuber I have been following since the beginning of his career 2008, and Jeffree Star (who I just started following last year on
youtube)
collabed and made a makeup collection together and I cannot afford it and I am legit sad and disappointed about it. I just miss being able to afford all the things I wanted. But no, I
gotta "adult" and pay for college out
of fpocket, pay for bills, and rent (thankfully after March that will be done.
.the rent anyway.) Things will get better, this is just a bump in the road. With God at the
helm I am positive we can make it through any rough weather. <3 <3 <3 God's will be done.
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