Plot Twist!!! I am Engaged!!!

Ever since I can remember, probably once it really (I mean really) "clicked" in my brain that I was different from everyone else, I always thought I'd never date, less become engaged and eventually marry someone.



I always saw these girls in magazines or my peers who were into makeup and fashion and here I was just struggling to look presentable but still comfy. I always saw the girls with bigger boobs, or nicer ass etc got the guys. That was their "dream girl" or so I thought and I thought if that was their dream, then I must be their "nightmare" cause I didn't look like that.



As I got older, I kind of just gave up on guys, I had gotten hurt too many times and wasn't gonna put myself out there to be hurt again;  figured I'd be "flying solo" the rest of my life...then after my surgery, I joined an online dating site at my mom's suggestion, and met a boy with Spina bifida. He brought out something in me that relit the fire of wanting love, wanting to be loved and accepted, and I figured if anyone understood my struggles, it'd be someone with a disability also. Sadly, however, that story ended after 3 years, the fire dimmed and was barely sparks anymore and I was constantly nagging him. I didn't want to be a "mom" I Wanted to be a girlfriend.



I put myself back out on the dating sites and got a few "hits" saying "hey beautiful" and my comeback was always 'you must be blind," "are you being sarcastic?," or "you need your eyes or maybe your brain checked out." because I didn't see myself as "beautiful." Then enters this older guy by 6 years or so, the same line of "hey beautiful," my same remarks of doubt, however, he persists and persists and persists; talking every day, wanted to meet publicly. so we did. we began dating October 24, 2017.



we had fun: productions at Opelousas Little Theatre, eating out, playing bowling on Wii or monopoly on the Xbox, taking his niece places, doing a gingerbread house, putting up Christmas village, oh the list could go on and on!

Sure he pesters me and likes to cuddle more than my ex, and I am not used to it and I push him away, but I do love him and like spending time with him, but I wish he'd understand I need my alone time too.

This Christmas he proposed to me! So now we are fiances' It is so weird but wonderful at the same time!!

hey everyone!

Sorry I been away so long. update: I had a boil May 2017 and I am still fighting with that wound a year and several months later; after a surgery to "clean the wound out" and developing pneumonia after that surgery. UGH! Nothing is ever simple! I am back to living on my own..well not my parents house anyway. I got an apartment at Bayou Shadows again; this time with my boyfriend. I am going back to ULL and trying my best, but some days are just so hard where I don't want to do my work and just lay around and chill out; even when I have 2 days off besides weekends. I don't know if its just lazy, can't focus, or depression or something. I don't mind doing housework or playing with my dog, but when it comes to the schoolwork, I gotta force myself --even for the two "fun classes" I scheduled. So weird, but hey I am trying my best with the hand I am given.

God Bless!